hmm ok. so today's my birthday. i'm turning 21 today. born with this name indira dhian saraswaty doesn't made me any different with the other girls that was born on the same day. but i suppose the way i make decisions in life make me different with the others, spesifically unique to others. i might have so many remorse for my past actions, or feeling proud for what i did and still doing until now. so many pros and cons that i've been faced all along my life, and whatever chances i've got, i really try to use it wisely.
 
sometimes i always see the fact and not the truth, when the truth can actually set me free. in other times i got trapped in a turbulance of emotions that i cant see the real deal in front of me. i got so wasted sometimes, but that restoring love always comes on time.
 
for every wrong decisions and every right ones, i feel blessed and overwhelmed by it. remembering that there's a God out there who's watching over me, and held me with His mighty right hand that brings nothing but comforts and victory, surely make me strong enough to face what i'm facing today.
 
a number of friends had sms me, and i'm so happy that most of them are the ones that i thought won't remember. even jedi was the one who congrats me by phone first, after that marisa. still try to feel not to overjoyed about it, kinda scared... :p
 
got scared on my birthday, don't that seem weird!